Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,your right hand will hold me fast.
Psalm 139:7-9



Monday, May 7, 2007

Ready or Not! Here it Comes!

I can't believe how quickly the time between now and August is going! Some days I feel like I'll never get everything done in time. It all seems so overwhelming. Maybe I should just forget the whole thing and go back to Africa. But then I realize that it's just the enemy trying to discourage me and I try and get my thinking back on track with what it should be. Then there are the days when I think to myself that I'd leave today if I could! Just the idea of learning to help women as they give birth to brand new precious babies is enough to make me want to jump up and down and praise God for this really awesome path that He's called me down. The money that I need for the two years is slowly starting to come in making the whole thing seem that much more eminent. Some days I still doubt whether or not it will all come in, but I know that God called me to this school and He will provide all that I need in order to attend. It's easy to KNOW that God is in control, but harder to actually TRUST Him when things get tough. He's always been with me before though. Why should I doubt Him now? I really have no reason too. Please pray that I will be encouraged in the difficult times and that I will always turn to God when I feel doubts creeping in.