A few of my random, jumbled thoughts...

Whenever I talk to people about my dreams to go to Africa and my unique position of being open and available for just about anything that God could bring my way, the response is very often, "What an exciting time in your life!" And it really is exciting to think that any time now, God will open that door and all of this training and preparation will finally be put to use for whatever it is that God has planned for me to do. More often though, I feel intimidated by the unknown. It's scary not knowing what the future will hold... something that probably every person on earth can relate to at least at some point in their life. I like having a plan. I like knowing what the next step is going to be. It's not easy to be content while I wait. I'll admit that I'm often discontent and I often have to repent and ask God to increase my faith. Why am I not more content when I know that God's plan has always been best in the past? Why haven't I learned that I can trust that He's got a reason for putting me in this place that I'm at now? Perhaps one day I will be the christian that I wish I was now... one that is content and at peace while waiting on God's perfect will. Until then, I suppose it's something to keep my on my knees.